Real-life Ramble

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So, I turn 18 on Wednesday.

And it might not feel like such a big deal, but where I live, being 18 means you've been driving and having sex for two years, you graduated last December, and you can finally legally drink. And I haven't done any of that.

A lot of it is because I spent last year studying in Japan, and I was legally not allowed to drive etc, and because I missed a year of school in my country to do it, I have to catch up and do it now. This means I am one year older than all the other kids in my classes. It also happens to be my brother's grade. My brother and I are really close anyway, but I find it hard to really fit in in his grade. Especially with the girls. All my old friends have left to go to University in the city, so I never see them anymore, and some days I feel pretty down and lonely. And sometimes I feel like the most pathetic, boring teenager on earth. 

So, I get stuck being emo about where I am in life, and then I get on my LJ and see all these comments from people saying 'thank you', and I realise what an ass I am being. I had a really great experience, that some people would kill for. I met so many beautiful people and did some really cool things, and now I have a really important skill that I can use to make a lot of people happier and I should never forget that.

I mean, here, I have got awesome writerroterhimmel saying THEY want to stalk ME which floored me, and then the insanely kindhcb_chibi who is posting me a novel all the way from Texas just out of the kindness of their heart, which I still can't believe.

Especially you, roterhimmel. I know you're going through a rough time right now, and I wanted to put it out there that every time I read a comment from you I still feel giddy and get the urge to sing. You inspire awe, mate.

 Just want to say THANK YOU to everyone who comments here, or on HEARTSTATION, or at KHInsider, I can't tell you how much it picks me up, knowing that the stuff I'm putting out is appreciated. Love you all!  

 

Comments

[ucco.livejournal.com]

Hey hun, we may not be very close, but from the conversations I've had with you I can tell you are intelligent and witty, and of course awfully sweet. I'm just a few years ahead of you, but I wasn't much different in high school. I loathed my friends who put their boyfriends or partying in higher priority than being with friends or other creative venues.

That sort of stuff always seemed like a waste of time to me and I'm lucky enough to have a few good friends who agree with me and a best friend in particular who keeps me grounded and confident. I really hope that you don't let the pressure get to you and that you'll meet like minded people! Keep pursuing the things that make you happy and don't worry what anyone else might think. You've already accomplished a lot and like I said, I may not know you well, but I can tell you are capable of great things, so good luck to you, and I hope you have a fantastic birthday!

[gold-panner.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for saying that <3 I hope we do get to know eachother better, too. You are so cool, and you're living the life I want to be someday~ (except I get the feeling I will never get the whole website makey thing ;___;)

Luckily I have some awesome mates who are coming down this weekend to 'initiate me into the world of adulthood' (read: they've already sent me a bottle of rum so far -_-;)

I have a pretty good life and I have heaps of people in various scattered places to support me, which I'm really thankful for. It makes me feel really stupid for being emo!

Love you Olivia <3 you always say nice things

[bubblegum-miley.livejournal.com]

;O;! You mentioned me! Oh my god, I am crying now! You keep me grounded and confident too! And happy!