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Hey guys,

Just wanted to say, I'm really sorry I haven't been posting novel translations recently.

The truth is, all the things I love to do have been stressing me out, from big things like study for the subjects I love at school to tiny things like getting up to face the day. At times it also included talking to people online who I love, and I'm so sorry for that too.

When things stress me out I tend to avoid them, and then make excuses to pretend I'm not stressed (especially when it's irrational stress in the first place). I've been telling myself I'm not in the mood, or I'm tired because of xyz reason, or because I'm just a lazy person, but the past few days I've thought really hard about it and I've faced up to it, and I feel horrible.

I know what the problem is (it's something I've been trying to deal with since the beginning of the year, but I was going about it backwards: it's not the symptoms that are the problem, but why I'd even have them, after all). And I'm going to try harder to fix it and try to stop being in denial about my real underlying problems, and most importantly, try to start doing the things I love again.

Part of this means I really, really want to keep translating the novels, even if to use to help myself through this funk. I absolutely love doing it, and it's good for my Japanese.

Well, that's the plan. I can't promise I will have anything to post soon, but it will happen. I just wanted to apologise for that and explain, because I know it can be frustrating when online people drop of the face of the earth, especially mid-project like this. 

So yeah, hope you guys are all well, and if you want, wish me luck :3

Date: 2011-09-08 05:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thiskindalove.livejournal.com
Aww.

Simply:

*HUGS*



I wish you all the luck in the world, bb. Feel better soon. :)

Date: 2011-09-09 03:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gold-panner.livejournal.com
Thank you so much ♥♥ *hugs back super tight*

Date: 2011-09-08 07:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mushinoko.livejournal.com
I understand, I've felt the same this year. I keep trying to pull myself up and get myself more active in the things I enjoy, but for some reason there is a mental barrier there...

I hope things will start to improve for both of us!

Date: 2011-09-09 04:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gold-panner.livejournal.com
Oh no... Do you think it's worth it to see a doctor? I think if it's taking the joys out of life it might be :C

I hope so too, I wish you all the best :3

Date: 2011-09-08 10:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mishiru-shi.livejournal.com
oh darling, do not apologize.
if it's making you feel stressed then do a break... it's always good in the end it's about your health.

and, whatever the problem is, I wish you luck and I hope you can set thing properly soon and come to a good point

Take a lot of care : )

Date: 2011-09-09 04:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gold-panner.livejournal.com
Well, I think my stress isn't normal, and I am taking too many breaks already, so I need to find a new way to deal with it and stop being flaky! 8D

And, thank you for your support ♥♥ I will! I want to be happy and motivated again!

Date: 2011-09-09 01:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ronsard.livejournal.com
I miss you. Tweet more about your ~troubled life~

Date: 2011-09-12 03:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gold-panner.livejournal.com
Aww ♥ Well, I've been reading all your tweets like a creepy stalker, perhaps it would only be fair to let you do the same...

Date: 2011-09-09 11:04 pm (UTC)
way2dawn: Riku smiling on the Dark Beach (SoraRoxas/hugs for you!)
From: [personal profile] way2dawn
*hughughughughughugs forevers*

Whatever is going on with you, I hope you feel better soon :( You really don't have to apologize, just focus on feeling better and stuff, okay?

Date: 2011-09-12 03:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gold-panner.livejournal.com
;u; *huuuuuugs back*

Nah, I do have to apologise, because I have been an utter flake recently. But I will get better! Thank you ♥♥

Goooood Luuucck

Date: 2011-09-10 12:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] catmaster0116.livejournal.com
Don't sweat it :)
Everyone has their own life too and at times it can get quite busy. Keep in mind that you are doing this as a hobby ~ so don't think of it as an absolute obligation

I can somewhat relate to you because for the last 7 weeks i've been going through the same.

Anyway - here is my gift to you: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MQqEAI85OVs in hopes it might help cheer you up

I wish you all the luck with your endeavors and we'll all be waiting here for you once the time is right :) ~ until then "FIGHT THE BLUES" and "STAY GOLD!" ~ (Pun on Utada haha)

Re: Goooood Luuucck

Date: 2011-09-12 03:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gold-panner.livejournal.com
Thank you so much *hugs* I hope you feel better soon too, then D;

Oh my god, that is so beautiful!! I posted a comment o3o

Ahahaha ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Date: 2011-09-17 05:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tequilamonday.livejournal.com
Good luck! You have such a beautiful spirit so I have faith you will fight off your demons. *mega internet hugz*

Date: 2011-09-22 02:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gold-panner.livejournal.com
Thank you so much .___. *giant hug back*

Don't go away >:

Date: 2011-09-28 03:41 am (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
Please, take your time. Don’t be afraid~
I wanted to read your translations. It...was the only one I liked... It made me feel...like I had a heart. It's kind of...funny... All about Kingdom Hearts make me feel...the same...

Re: Don't go away >:

Date: 2011-09-28 11:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gold-panner.livejournal.com
Ahahaha :'D I see what you did there...

And don't worry. I can't promise it will happen soon, but I will do my best to get there! I'm sorry. Thank you for the kind message!

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